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My mental health sucks
princess, sookylahlah
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There was another MelCosPho on today but I didn't go. The weather was bad and I wasn't feeling too well from girly aches and pains. I really wanted to go but I just couldn't muster up the energy or mood. Now I feel disappointed and anxious. I was feeling really lonely this weekend so I thought it would be good to get out of the house.

Mentally beating myself up about not going now.

I feel so disconnected from everyone lately. It's no ones fault. Friends are busy with their own lives and I seem to have work or something else on whenever someone is free. Either that or I start feeling sick or anxious and end up not going to things. I've been terrible at following through and organising things with people too. Was gonna do photoshoots, was gonna go shopping with a friend...and just never got around to it. My weekly roleplaying game got cancelled months ago too, so I miss seeing those guys on a somewhat weekly basis.

My sister moved out of home and I'm the only one left here. My parents don't talk to me much, they are busy doing things most the time.

I always thought I'd be fine by myself. But I'm so insanely lonely.

I'm so glad that Ethan will be back for good on Tuesday so I won't feel so isolated anymore.

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